Hope continued...

This theme of hope has been repeated over and over in my life over the past week. I have heard myself saying or thinking....

"I hope it rains"
"I hope I can schedule 20 summer students so that I don't have to take on another part-time job"
"I hope I can get planned ahead over the summer"
"I hope I can get the house organized this weekend"
"I hope that I can have time to work on writing music"

And many more thoughts or words have gone through my mind and off of my lips over the past week. I have been convicted of using hope in place of trust. Hope is good, but I have used hope more than trust. I TRUST that God will send rain in His time. I TRUST that God will provide the students I need to take care of our bills over the summer, and if He doesn't, He will provide another opportunity to provide for us. I TRUST that God has given me skills to plan my time well and that this weekend, I will get the house cleaned and organized, which will lead to time best used to plan ahead in ministry and write music. Many times, I haven't always taken that step from hope to trust. And that's where I find myself.

So, how does it get fixed? Well, interestingly enough, in my life, God usually sends these little revelations to snap me back into His reality. Do I listen? Not all the time. But having this realization as I have a planned quiet weekend to focus on hearing God's voice, and working on specific steps to get things in life physically, mentally, ministry-wise, and most importantly, spiritually in order, is a great place to start! Hopefully after this weekend, I will have more insight and direction after this weekend.