I want to be different

I want to be different. I already am. I'm an individual, created by God, and there is no one else on this planet like me. Sure, there are other people named Craig Harmann on the planet, but they're not me. But it's more than that.

This has been weighing on me for a while. It is said that it takes about 21 days to make, change or create a habit. For the past 25 days, I've been making better choices when it comes to eating. And that's been reflected in 12 pounds lost so far. That's physically making myself different. But it's more than that, too.

I have been spending time reflecting on what I do, and why the status quo for the past 5 years, is OK, but it doesn't seem to be growing or going in any forward direction. I'm looking at myself, what I need to do different, what I need to do more or less of, and asking tough questions. But it's still more than that.

I don't read my Bible enough. I don't trust God enough. I don't spend enough time with my wife and daughters. I don't, I don't, I don't. And there's more than that.

All of this that I'm looking at, in my own personal life, my health, ministry, family time, all of it is part of the bigger picture of being different. I'm already different, and I understand that. But in understanding, that doesn't always mean I do or I am. Being different sometimes means change. Sometimes, it means staying the same. I'm trying to figure out what does that look like in my life.

How do I figure it out? I pray. I seek answers in God's Word. I seek input from others. I simplify what I do in my life and ministry. And in time, I know that God will provide.